Friday, January 28, 2011

Especially

I love her,
I dream about her... especially her smile.

Mia loves her,
Mia adores her... especially her song.

Our family loves her,
Our family is blessed by her... especially her hands.

She loves me,
she delights me... especially her heart.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Mommy and Mia at home, Daddy in Chicago

Mommy and Mia at home,
Daddy in Chicago: http://conference.newtechnetwork.org/

Saturday, July 10, 2010

for he is

look into the world we live in
jesus is our only hope
he loves the little children
and even the ones who've lost all hope

for he is, jesus (CHORUS)
for he is, our saviour
for he is, jesus

the nights begin with wonder
built by the ones he loves
but the night is soon filled with darkness
and that is why, he loves

at dawn his people will sing
forever sing

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Spiritual Discipline Log V

Reading: The Life You've Always Wanted by John Ortberg

An Unhurried Life (Chapter V)
Ortberg describes it as the "hurry sickness" disease.
I remember around college time, "multi-tasking" was talked about as a "great skill." I remember hearing people proudly proclaim that they were good at it and I remember chiding remarks that I was so BAD at it.

Ortberg speaks of poly-phasic activity (multi-tasking) not as a skill, but a behavior that should be avoided. The need to multi-task springs from a hurried life,a spiritually endangered life. For myself, the poor quality that results in my multi-tasking has been enough for me to avoid it. For this who are "good at it," I see this as a real temptation to avoid.

Not mentioned in the text, but I wonder how to deal with being on time and the sense that one needs to hurry sometimes to be on time. I guess the easy answer is simply to have margin in your schedule, go to bed early, and get up early. Other, more subtle thoughts?

Goal Statements
- I don't want to give my wife and family my leftovers at the end of a long day (sunset fatigue).
- I want to chew my food 15 times before I swallow it.
- I want to seek solitude.
- I want to not hurry, like Jesus.

Personal Note
Most often I find myself in a hurry when I am anxious... anxious over a new task or a tight deadline. This is when I need to most watch out for the temptation to hurry. I remember arriving a little late to the airport after visiting my dad. After checking in, we had time for a proper farewell, but I rushed to the security line where he is not allowed as a non-traveler. I missed the opportunity to lovingly say goodbye to my dad because I hurried. Sad.

Monday, January 04, 2010

Spiritual Discipline Log IV

Reading: The Life You've Always Wanted by John Ortberg

A Dee Dah Day - The Practice of Celebration (Chapter IV)
"Joy is a command. Joylessness is a serious sin," (page 63). I have never viewed joy as a command before. Previously, I viewed it more as the bonus of living a Christ-centered life. Ortberg is really challenging me to view that God makes joy the "serious business of heaven." I know of the mirthless religious people that so many unbelievers do not want to become, so having great joy is also essential for sharing my faith with others.
Another concept really took me by surprise. Ortberg says that we are most susceptible to fall into sin when our joy is weakened. That is a fresh outlook into my own patterns of sin and addiction. I can see how seeking a joy-filled life can indeed help prevent sin in my life.
Some additional interesting ideas from Ortberg:
1) We must learn the skill of joyfulness: feasting, dancing, celebrating, etc.
2) Joyfulness is the inverse of Hedonism (is this what John Piper calls "Christian Hedonism"?)

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Spiritual Discipline Log I-II-III

Reading: The Life You've Always Wanted by John Ortberg

We Shall Morph Indeed (Chapter I)
After a great preface, This chapter was not what I expected. I don't know who John Ortberg, but the book did not read like a book, but more like a sermon. Putting that aside, he did begin with some great points. Page 20 says, "The possibility of transformation is the essence of hope." When we remember we are disciples of Jesus, we are filled with hope. Hope knowing that this life will be lived with meaning and the everlasting life that will be, "most excellent, dude."
But I mess that up. I forget the mercy bestowed upon me. I forgive the providence of God for real meaning in life. I choose things that prevent my transformation. I prevent God to change me to be the man He wants to see. Ortberg asks, are we like Moses- when we see the burning bush, do we turn aside and approach God... or do we continue on our own path.

Surprised by Change (Chapter 2)
This chapter asks a great question for any Christian: Do we we expect too little? Real followers of Christ should expect transformation. We should see that in everyone who is a Christian. Instead, we see "Christians" as those who conform to certain cultural norms for each generation- no dancing, no smoking, no jazz, no wearing shorts to church, etc. Sadly, every group of people, including Christian, emphasize the club rules as a mark of a bad or good (we call it spiritual) member. What should be doing? 1. Love God 2. Love those around us. Ortberg is pointing out that we seem to like to make boundaries that prevent us Christians from loving others; We seem to like to "act weird" (the bad kind) and prevent people from loving God.

Training vs. Trying (Chapter 3)
"Happy are they who know that discipleship simply means the life which springs from grace, and that grace simply means discipleship." - Dietrich Bonhoeffer
Discipline trains me to live out what I want. Spiritual discipline trains me to live out the awesome life Jesus' taught and modeled. Its help for us, not God. It is our goal to be able to discern the will of the Spirit and offer action that is "prompt, effective, and loving." All people in all seasons of life can omit or commit to doing something! The organized, the spontaneous, the good seasons, the bad seasons, the single, and the married have something special to develop spiritually. And remember, to do be spiritually disciplined, receive the gift of sleep (or you won't be able to do any of this!)

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Golden Gate Ramble Bike Trail

Friday, December 25, 2009

Pure Precious

Gold, Silver, Platinum-
Pure Precious Ring.
Crafted by a master,
Vowed before the Lord.

May this vow again be precious,
Pure and shine like platinum.
May my vow again be precious,
Pure and good like the Lord.




Friday, August 14, 2009

Riddles List

I found a list of riddles I made recently...

Even though I can't remember then all, here goes...

Jack and Jill
16th & 20th
*Spotless Car
Twin Fall
*Pelican Sandwich
*Pushing Car up to a Hotel
*Dog in the Road
*4-way stop
*King and the Marbles
*Rooster
*4-2-3 Legs

*still remember

Thursday, July 30, 2009

What Sisters Are Made Of

What Sisters Are Made Of

Sisters come in many flavors.
Some are sweet and some are spicy.
But my sister is made of the best ingredients:
Truth, Love, and Potato Chips!

Truth.
Some sisters have never heard of it
and others acknowledge it exists.
While some sisters practice it occasionally with their brother,
For my sister, truth and beauty are one and the same.

Love.
Amorous love, passionate love,
Friendly love, lustful love.
They're nice, but as a wife, a mother and my sister,
She is a sacrificial lovers of the noblest kind.

Potato Chips.
Yes, empty calories of the finest kind.
But my sister is made of potato chips
because she, the Potato Chip Queen, was willing to "finish the bag"
after school everyday with me, the Potato Chip King!

Happy Birthday, Tina

Sunday, May 03, 2009

one

With faith... we learned what love is from the One.
With hope... we became one.
With love... we have been together for one.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

memory - LSG

cookie dough, rainbow sherbet, pistachio, mocha almond fudge, cotton candy, oreo, chocolate, snickers, black cherry, vanilla, bubble gum, neopolitan, chunky monkey, rocky road, toffee, strawberry

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Make or Find Something

Make or find something was the task
"What did Jerry come up with?" you ask
What jumped in him brain
Was a limerick for Lorraine
This corny spouse hides behind no mask!

Beautiful and lovely are you
Each day together is never blue
As we drink together the cup of Christ
Souls for Jesus is our heist
May heaven be populous and also the pews!

BONUS STANZA
Savory this sweet surprise
Because it brings out a rise
Not of the heart
But a wet gaseous fart
let me know when it dries...

Friday, March 20, 2009

to lowrain6 on her brithday

Sing for this bright day
A Proverbs thirty-one is born!
Bless'd is her man

I, that man she loves!
Truly is she sent for me?
True Bless'd am I

Lo! 'tis sweet is love!
Sprinkle sprouts of romance, stir
And simmer on low

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The Love Note Haiku

The Love Note Haiku
in our first season of love
may God bless us on


Sunday, March 08, 2009

Stace #1

There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death. - Proverbs 14:12
SM: The gravitational pull on us eve as Christians is to sin... a life of sin leads to death...
JH: Why I should not seek to be a producer...

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list game - Youth NHCC

pizza
tacos
oranges
marshmellows
chicken
gyros
spaghetti
mash potatoes with gravy
cake
suckers
chocolate
bacon
pancakes
menudo
sausage
oj
burritos
...

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Saturday, March 07, 2009

list game - Ashley and Hallie

dog
cat
rabbit
jackrabbit
zebra
bear
monkey
polar bear
camel
black bear
bird
panda
horse
umbrellabird
yee-yee
ostrich
cheetah
lion
mau-mau
anteater

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Saturday, January 03, 2009

2:02am syllogisms in the shower

2:02am syllogisms in the shower
the church is those saved by the grace of Christ
those saved by Christ are men, created by God
men created in the image of God, have chose to disobey God
disobeying God has made men imperfect
Thus, the church is imperfect

He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." - Revelations 21:5

i, jerry j. huang, acknowledge i am not perfect
i, jerry j. huang, acknowledge i disobey God
i, jerry j. huang, acknowledge i am a person, created by God
i, jerry j. huang, acknowledge Christ as my savior
i, jerry j. huang, acknowledge i am Christ's beloved church

syllogism inspiration
today I watched a woody allen movie (i will let you guess which one). afterwards, i had a headache and felt sick. i then took a shower when i suspected that i was probably feeling that way because i was constantly breathing in the bbq smoke emanating from by hair. showering, i acknowledge i am imperfect yet i am the beloved by Jesus.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Understanding

I realize this thanksgiving day that I usually write poetry when I am the furthest from those people I love most. In the past, it has been friends and family. In recent, the lady and God.

I look forward to some Redmond-style thanksgiving festivities later today, but at this moment, I am sitting in my sister's beautiful new home nearing 2am by myself.

My sister has made her start in the world of motherhood, my elders are, well, older, and I am just thankful for...

Understanding

Asleep I lie, awake she lies, on our wedding night.
Up I rise, great I sigh, post my wedding night.
Her thoughts alive, doubt arise, post her wedding night.
She talks.
I talk.
The hard parts. Understanding.

Asleep I lie, these nights: joy, pain, and understanding.
Asleep she lies more nights, unless hers are too demanding.
But tonight she sleeps,
and I am awake,
Praying for understanding.

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Saturday, November 08, 2008

Saint Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of Your grace.
Where there is hatred let me sow love,
where there is injury, pardon,
where there is doubt, faith,
where there is despair, hope,
where there is darkness, light,
where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning  that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to
eternal life.

uncovered in The Measure of a Man

Friday, October 03, 2008

6 plus 1 limerick

There once was a crew of six
who shared their great conflicts
Meeting together place to place
unafraid to lose face
with Jesus in the mix

To help them fight more fair
They read a book on a six month dare
Each week they read a chapter
With moments filled with laughter
and other with the death stare

Page thirty-one shared their taste
to clean up toxic waste
Thought it may be tough
dealing with this stuff
but gotta do it with haste!

The couple gave this suggestion
with daily conflict was the question
"Daily Temperature Reading" they said,
"But not right before bed
or he'll forget what she mentioned!"

l&j

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Gia and Demetri: The Story of the Stanwards

What did Jesus say to the pornstar?

I love you (j.y. "the benchmaker" t-shirt inspired) =)

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

our first valentine's

lady,
the path of the just is like the shining sun
that shines ever brighter unto the perfect day
proverbs 4:18
---
my sweet and lovely lady-
may i help us to walk in the Son and follow the pathways of Jesus. i want us to shine for Him in our lives together.
let us pray
this valentine's
that it
be so!
---
may we
feast on love-
every mode of it.
may we be-
solemn & merry
romantic & realistic
dramatic & comfortable
thunderstorms & slippers.
you are my-
pupil & teacher
subject & sovereign
comrade & shipmate
sexy mistress & best friend
(adapted from c.s. lewis)

love,
ryry

boomin' - jerimac @ the tobymac concert

your love is boomin'out of my cardio system
this goes out to Lord whose is listenin'
boomin' out of my cardio system
i rep the most high with this one
boomin' out of my cardio system

this goes out to Lord whose is listenin'
Boomin' out of my cardio system
'Cause you rock for sure with je-ri-o

Saturday, February 09, 2008

worship life, uninspired to change.
inspirational worship from a changed life.
worship inspired life change.
life of worship, inspires change.

six in one

six
...hesitating...
...ah, an opening...
...rushing, gushing, spilling over...
connecting, relating, responding...
BUZZ
...summarizing...
...simmering...
...slow cooked...
...mmm, delicious.
...leaving...
...loving...
...singing... to one

Sunday, December 09, 2007

pitstop between...

Lorriane and I made a little pit stop by Ocean Beach between picking up Peter's relatives and the wedding ceremony. Congrats Peter and Cindy!
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Saturday, October 13, 2007

window to the right

Under the surface of our exchange
hazy, she peers out the window to the right
she gazes as the trees go slowly, slowly by
thoughts of… i know not… oh but i only knew!

Speaking. passion freedom danger
exchanging. moment never forget
spoken. awoken. memories of things long gone by
exchanged. scarred. marring of the ‘mooning moment.

Wait. A slight turn to the left?
i anticipate the expression… is it?
no idea… no idea… oh the wait!
A sign of parting lips to speak
hesitation… but words!
words! oh words like no other!
Crowning justice,
justly kindness,
kingly triumphant, truth.

From the window to the right,
to the captain to the left,
the Lady engages, with love.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

striped friends on the waterfront

The very beginning of this summer, I was on the water front. On a nice rollout blanket layed a huge spread of assorted delights from everyone's favorite epicurian adventure destination, Trader Joe's. But what is a picnic without great company?
O how He has blessed me!
LL, your company has been such a delight. You have been the answer to my most heart felt prayers. How fondly are these memories of our adventures these first few months together, especially that day we had with our striped friends on the water front.
Lord does indeed prepare the best plans for His children. May we as companions in this world seek even the more together than we did apart. I believe we can if you will be my girl.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

newman smith HS a capella & speakman signature

May the Lord bless you and keep you;
The Lord make his face shine upon you;
And be gracious to you;
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.

Monday, June 04, 2007

seal team haiku

there once a man named jerry
lived in dallas discipled by barry
then God called him to sactown
met a guy who gave the devil the smack down
so join him in china to bring God merry

a night

nare a night of such delight,
has past my path, oh birth of mirth!
cross, heart, grace, and truth,
o' sweet lady I have known through our youth.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

not in front of ned

Two friends of mine and i were discussing Biblical topics over lunch. Knowing that i wanted to talk to one of them about the super natural gift of speaking in tongues, we both waited until our third friend had left us. Our third friend (I'll call him Ned), is a relatively new, but faithful follower of Jesus. But somehow i find it strange, we were going to talk about it in front of Ned.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Beautiful

Lord you are beautiful
Beautiful beyond desription
Lord you are beautiful
Power
Majesty
Love and compassion
Lord you are beautiful
Beautiful

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

From project-catalyst.org

Changing a Culture January 20
Filed under Front Page by sungp 0 comments
Change is a funny thing. It is an inevitable process of life, yet often it is not welcome, especially when it comes to changing something about ourselves. Even more peculiar is our propensity to point out the need for change in others, yet we tend to be blind to our own shortcomings. And even when we are gently shown the mirror–even if we acknowledge the need for change–it is difficult to follow through. I have been guilty of all of the above, but since I have known Christ He has lovingly made it clear to me that change is a must, that it must begin with me, and that it must be real. And now I find myself continuously being transformed and growing in ways I never thought possible. I praise God for His never-ending work in me, and my new perspective. I now value the fruit of change and the labors required of it in a profound way.
I hope this site will become a place to help encourage positive change in the Asian American Christian culture. The Lord has blessed Asian Americans tremendously. In the last U.S. census Asian Americans were found to be the most educated of all ethnic groups in America (including Caucasians) as well as the group with the highest median income. I want to be careful not to overstate things, but there is substantial evidence here that Asian Americans are the most blessed group of people in the most blessed nation on the planet. Thus Asian Americans are in a position of great potential for influence. Yet those blessings have not translated, on a relative scale, into a reciprocated practice (dare I say even desire) of producing substantial fruit for the kingdom. I have consistently observed a trend of “less than ideal” church environments in Asian American churches and I find it troublesome.
However, before I become too critical, I do want to acknowledge that there are some wonderful, shining examples of Asian Americans who have sincerely internalized the gospel and live a transformed life of faith and action. I also want to clarify that this not just an issue for the Asian American church. We could certainly say the same of just about any church in America and beyond. However, God has made me with a heart for my Asian brothers and sisters, as well as with a stake in our development as a people. I have prayed to the Lord and sought his guidance on what I can do to further His kingdom and it is this very issue that He has openend my eyes to.
There is so much that we can do, and that we will do. As Asian Americans we have a unique position of influence. This is no where more evident than in the relationship we have with the peoples of our countries of origin. First I must recognize the wonderful labors of the “traditional missionaries”. Often as western or “white-faced” missionaries go to share the gospel in Asian countries, the good news of Christ is greeted with tremendous excitement and wonder. Great fruit is born as the seeds of God’s love mature through the Spirit into people of new found faith. However, another common reaction is skepticism. Many factors contribute to this reaction including culture, history, governmental influence, and media. This skepticism can be overcome, but for many their hearts are closed. But perhaps the most common reaction is a sort of combination of the aforementioned, where there is an initial excitement for the message which, unfortunately over time is replaced with skepticism as Jesus Christ becomes seen as the “western god” and not the God of all people. Thus short-term gains often are replaced with a return to pre-conceptions and ultimately disbelief.
This is where the Asian American Christian has an advantage. Instead of God being seen as the “western god” (in fact some Asians believe that Jesus was an American), Asian American Christians can share of how God is the God of all. He is not the “white-god”, he is just God. And as Asian American Christians take the time to share their personal testimony of how God and His love have impacted their lives, our Asian brothers and sisters begin to see that indeed this is the God for all people. There is something special about seeing God’s impact on someone whom you see as someone not far removed from you. Granted, for some it will not matter. They will either see the gospel or they won’t, but for others–a significant amount of others–seeing the reality of God’s love working through the life of someone just like them can make a big difference.
These advantages (or gifts as I prefer to see it) among others are what Asian Americans should focus on in setting a new course for the Asian American Church. This movement will require strong men and women of faith and vision. We must develop our core of strong servant-leaders to take charge of this calling to expand not only the breadth, but also the depth of the kingdom. The seeds have already been planted by many and attempts to mobilize the movement have already been made with varying degrees of success. But we can do more. I believe that God uniquely made the Asian American Christian with specific purposes in mind. It is up to us to seize this divine moment to break out of our shell and blossom into a new culture of believers, one that He has planned for all along.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

we shall see (vintage)

we shall see
(vintage ~2000 A.D.)

while lost and blinded to the truth
and staggering through my uncharted path
when the thoughts of half a year
wandering nearer to my hopes and dreams

floating
it was
the feelings had lived in time
above all else
finally had I
bowed to its calling
and through the days of my new inspiration
surely had I imflamed the heart
with my minds sole desire

though at first, I had abandoned my true desire
for I seeked only, of those of ease
and for what meant most, I had only kept
deep inside, consealed behind
the door in which I had not seen
and only conceived as an inscalable wall

AH! force seemed the only key
for then I discovered what I really seeked
and then to find, as I passed through the wall
a door, no force, no tricks, no danger of anything

just to know I, myself, hold the magic key
and then the thoughts of half a year
wandered through to my hopes and dreams
and now, we shall see

Saturday, December 09, 2006

thabiti anyabwile

Name: Thabiti Anyabwile
Location: Grand Cayman, KY

I love the Lord because He first loved me. I love His people because He has given me a new heart. I have received God's favor in the form of my wife, Kristie. And together we know His blessing through three children. I was once a Muslim, and by God's grace I have been saved through faith in Jesus Christ. By God's unfathomable grace I am a preacher of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, in which I hope to serve Him until He returns or calls me home!

profile from : http://purechurch.blogspot.com/

why ($tomlin == WORSHIP)

Chris Tomlin: from Hip Hymns for Him

People sing his songs a lot, often repeatedly. Specifically, they sing them in church. According to Christian Copyright Licensing International (CCLI), an organization that licenses music to churches, Tomlin, 34, is the most often sung contemporary artist in U.S. congregations every week. Since glee clubs have fallen out of popularity, that might make Tomlin the most often sung artist anywhere.
This distinction does not make him the best musician anywhere, as he will be the first to admit. Tomlin's How Great Is Our God (which he co-wrote with Jesse Reeves and Ed Cash), currently the second most popular modern chorus in U.S. churches (after Tim Hughes' Here I Am to Worship), is not particularly profound--the title pretty much sums it up--but it's heartfelt, short and set to a stirring soft-rock melody that sticks in the mind like white to rice. That's Tomlin's gift: immediacy. "I try to think, How do I craft this song in a way that the person who's tone-deaf and can't clap on two and four can sing it?" says the songwriter. "I hope that when someone hears a CD of mine, they pick up their guitar and say, 'O.K., I can do that.'" Which is not the way people react to, say, Handel's Messiah.
Theology is simply the study of God. That’s why every Christian, musician or otherwise, is a theologian. The question is whether we’re a good theologian or a bad one. We’re a good theologian if what we say and think about God lines up with the whole of Scripture. We’re a bad theologian if our view of God is vague, unbiblical, distorted, or simply reflects our own opinions.

Friday, December 01, 2006

a dallas thanksgiving

- first visit my mom's new house with her new husband in South Dallas
- first visit my grandma's new house in South Dallas
- meeting up for dinner with a high school friend I haven't talked to in 8 years!
- clubbing until 2am
- eating wings at 3am
- 4 games of Mahjong to 4am in the morning
- a wedding of a gal to a guy whom I question if her parents wanted to marry the guy or her... complete with cursing and insulting toast from the bridesmaid/sister... yikes!
- buying a record player and listening to chinese records from my grandma's teenage years
- a family crisis discussion about my mother's new husband
- 2 pieces of chicken for 89 cent at Popeyes. oh yeah...
- and thanksgiving dinner: leg of lamb, rack of lamb, turkey legs, and hotpot

Monday, October 30, 2006

two siblings, one roof

two siblings, one roof

Do I feel like I a "have" or a "have not"?
How do I define being a "have" or a "have not"?
What are the main components to feeling privileged?
What are the main components to feeling under privileged?
Where do I think I am currently in the spectrum?
How hard would I say I tried to get where I am today?
Am I doing things that are moving me towards one end or the other?
And what about Jesus, what are His thoughts on this topic?

hmmm...

Monday, October 23, 2006

new or good - a question of time with friends

MODIFIED:

As we settle down in our "latter years of life," we have more and more friends that we value. But as who choose to spend more and more time with good friends, this means less and less time reaching out to any thing or any one new. This has been a big dilemma in my heart lately. RL made a good point: its about priorities and priorities are based on what you value. Yet, when every I choose to to spend time with the really cools friends I already know, I can't help but feel like I am not making myself available to others and the the (the Spirit can be quite convicting!).

I think my original words that my existing "friendships are at risk" is the wrong words. But I am considering this: my friends who do not continue to try and reach out to new people, I tend to have less to talk about with and find less a desire to hang out with them. I find myself drawn to people who have an invitation mentality. I think the worst thing is, I feel animosity towards when the group doesn't want anymore people to join its "inner circle." Probably those who know what LSG means at New Hope would understand why the structure makes my feel uneasy.

To everyone who considers what I am saying: I pray that we may all look forward to an eternity together. While on this earth, I hope we all can invite a few others to come spend eternity some where nice.

Friday, October 20, 2006

by mcmanus

to live by faith, to be known by love, and to be a voice of hope
- based on 1st thessalonians 1:2-3

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

let's talk!

Paraphasing K-LOVE's devotional today:
For a Christian, if prayer is truly as important as breathing, then Paul's words "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17) is like "breathe without ceasing".

The Elephant Medley from Moulin Rouge says, "Love is like oxygen, Love lifts us up where we belong, all we need is love."

Having a prayer life and communicating with our loving God is our oxygen as His disciples. One day, those who really know Him and have spent time conversing with Him on Earth, He will invite to sit with Him, up in Heaven. May we all come to realize that the only person we need to know is the God of love.

... Lord, let's talk!

Monday, September 25, 2006

i love my 0 x 0 cube

So who is doing this and what have they achieved? The BT Worldwide Headquarters in London was one of the first exponents of hotelling. The building offers 1,500 desks for between 4,000 and 8,000 daily (mainly employee) visitors. This is achieved by creating what Chris Webber, head of BT Workstyle calls "CCC Culture", or 'cappuccino, connectivity and chat'.
Here a BT employee's working location is task specific, with only minimal nods to hierarchy (for instance, BT has replaced the traditional status indicator, the corner office, with new indicators such as high-end laptops and other mobility toys). Each floor offers a different work setting, supported by an onsite concierge and hosts several restaurants which can be used for informal meetings.
The system is underpinned by a global IT platform, including wi-fi and IP telephony, and a proprietary room- and desk-booking system. The result is a vibrant, collaborative workspace which fizzes with energy, while the accountants haven't failed to notice that the annual cost per desk is now one-fifth of its original level.

taken from www.silicon.com

Thursday, September 07, 2006

"The only real prison is fear, and the only real freedom is freedom from fear." - Aung San Suu Kyi
1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear"
1 John 4:8 "...God is Love"

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

your mother

reading luke 11:28 the other day ...

-- someone attempts a compliment or praise of you, "oh you must make your mother proud... she is so blessed to have such a great son"

-- how do you respond? "thank you"... "de nada"... or just blush?

-- Jesus' response: the truly blessed are folks to obey and practice what God says

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

a saddle

Once upon a time, there was a CGBC church camp,
Where we met under the glow of gymnasium bulb lamps.
Well on the first day, was a game of family feud,
Everyone was excited and in a great mood.

"Name something people wear," asked our groomsman Syd,
"A saddle," said Brian, an answer that earned him no quid.
We all had a good chuckle and enjoy our fellowship time,
But thinking back to his answer, I penned this saddle-themed rhyme.

What could it mean to wear a saddle?
To be a noble stead and ready for battle?
To defend his new wife, no matter the cost?
A labor of sacrifice, like Christ on the cross.

I remember the day, on the courts of Kennedy High,
A Brian Wong who came launching, three-pointers that could fly!
But when the game was over, a conversation begun,
Finding Brian at 6656 Park Riviera on Sunday, where his life first had been won.

Brian loved his new fellowship, the brothers and sisters of CAT.
On Sundays at 10am, saddled to the second and third row all of us sat.
Through CAT Brian led faithfully, especially on core,
Along with Lorraine, getting to know each other more.

Then saddling the cost of time away from work,
Last summer Brian traveled to China, where the Gospel only lurked.
Lorraine went too, so what can I say,
Their hearts grew fonder for each another, day by serving day.

Now I want you to know, Brian wears but one saddle,
He knows who’s his Master, may his faith never be rattled.
As God as his guide, he remains trustworthy and true,
And thus bringing joy to God's family, from Lorraine to all of you.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

the

T H E

Love like
Offer up ourselves to
Radiate the light of
Do everything as if you were doing it for

dedicated to christina blake

Friday, April 28, 2006

jerry's song

Jerry its your birthday
And God bless you this day
He gave me the gift of a brother
And I'm proud of you today

Jerry its your birthday
Happy birthday Jerry
Jerry its your birthday
Happy birthday Jerry

I wish you love and goodwill
I wish you PRAISE and joy
I wish you better than your heart desire
And your first kiss from a girl

Jerry its your birthday
Happy birthday Jerry
Jerry its your birthday
Happy birthday Jerry
Yeah!

Poet - fengster the magnificent

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

sac@nite

its late, i'll run to 24
packed
the capitol
showered rose petals
weathered woman sleeping
cry to Jesus
"can i offer you my hat? its cold tonight"
"you go now" she says
open mic at the fox and goose public house
bang and croon
unrest

Thursday, April 06, 2006

my testimony

coming soon...

Monday, April 03, 2006

because of brother andrew

because of guest speaker brother andrew, i unearthed a great and ugly source of pride in myself. brother andrew came to love and encourage our church and its members today, but my heart was unwilling to be loved by him.

do i feel i do not need his encouragement because i see him as too old fashion or just too chinese?
...or do i not respect him simply because i don't think he understands the area of meadowview?
...or do i resent the fact that he is placed to oversee a church that he "does not understand?"
...or was it simply the fact that he believed a junior and adult choir was the blessings of a growing modern church?

in loving some neighbors unlike myself in meadowview, i have discovered this ugly pride that excludes me from being loved or loving of another group of neighbors unlike myself, the "asiatic recent deboarders of naval crafts"

LORD, I pray, change my heart

Friday, March 31, 2006

JSL

troubled... my friend jsl needs to be loved... LORD, will you provide?

http://tigerlily2004.blogspot.com/2006/03/unwilling-heart.html

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

jepimphany (n)

jepimphany (n) : a Jesus inspired, pimpin' empiphany

fengster @ intel.com

R.I.P.
fengster @ intel.com
2002 - 2006
This follower of Christ
has gone on to his
next life and journey
with Jesus by his side.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Fear and Love

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. - 1 John 4:18-19

At the age of fifteen, I pretty much had a fear of everything. Rollercoasters, heights, and above all, talking to girls. But then I met Eva. (Smiles, this ones for you Coulomb "James" Chang... where ever you are). Probably impossible at that point to convince me that it was just a crush, but that's basically what it was, my first major crush. Suddenly, I had no fear; For I knew I was "in love."

Ms. Junior Statesment of America and all around leader of leaders of any organization or group of friends. What I found so attractive about her was her drive and ambitions. Confronting such an individual in the middle of high school, I can see why guys and gals were so equally drawn to her. Thankfully, after months of following her around, she sat me down one day and told me something that changed my life.

It wasn't so much what she said about what she wanted in her life, but the fact that she knew what she wanted and I didn't. After a few very hard days of thinking over my life, I realized that I needed to figure out what's important in my life before I go and try to be a part of someone elses.

What followed was a long year of participating in clubs, sports, and having new friends. From Tennis playing to Math Club to Key Club to Faith in Jesus Christ, I realized that I was just beginning to understand what I do and do not love. I was immature. I only knew how to show love in outward ways. I didn't understand that showing love has much more to do with the heart than gifts and flowers.

Mark Feng, thank you. Our conversation this weekend coming back from the mingle movement, remined me of this period in my life. I believe this story is a hint of what started my search to understand love and life's meaning. I don't know why (but I guess none of us will until we get There), but God was speaking to me that year. Yes, seek Him and He will find you. "So come home running, his arms are open wide, His name is Jesus, He understands." - Chris Tomlin

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. - 1 John 3:16

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

lo'body

I use to play my lo'body and sing at the age of three.
Then I ran around grandma's living room singin' jackson family.
A song sang in my heart with my family all around and my sister as my best friend.

But then I got older and found nintendo playin' buddies.
My world was full of mario and contra while my lifeforce was dying.
Darkness filled my heart, and the song was almost gone.

A capella choir? Sandy, Lija, and Lynn, thank you.
Mrs. Hall and Mr.Eder, God bless you!
What's this I see... a new fire in me?

Words that praise a Father.
A Son that saves me.
A new song in my heart, FOREVER! Where darkness can never be!

Oh do you have a lo'body, too?

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

why

why?

Why did Michael and Jerry go to Israel?
Why did Michael and Jerry compromise their security and comfort?
Why are the Speakmans in Israel?
Why do the Speakmans refuse to leave when they face persecution and risk their very lives?

why…

Why, because the Speakmans desire that God be glorified.
Why, because the Speakmans said ‘yes’ to the work of building God’s eternal kingdom.
Why, because the Speakmans believe that many men and women still have a God shaped hole in their hearts in Israel.
Why, because Michael and Jerry desire that God be glorified.
Why, because Michael and Jerry said ‘yes’ to the work of building God’s eternal kingdom.
Why because Michael and Jerry want to know how to pray for Sidney & Linda Speakman and for the nation of Israel.

seek first his kingdom and his righteousness – matthew 6:33

why.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Learning Mandarin...

"If you are passionate about the culture, you enjoy learning. From enjoyment comes energy. And in my experience, from energy comes achievement."
- Chris Chene cited in EE Times why and how he learned Mandarin

Author and Perfecter

Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith - Hebrews 12:2

Jesus, the author and perfecter of LOVE

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

This is the place

This is the place
where we lived
This is the place
where we loved
This is the place, oh this is the place
where we first cried out to you

Sometimes when we come
And sometimes when we go
we forget your life
Sometimes when we've loved
And sometimes when we've lost
we forget your love
But this is the place, oh this is the place
where we first was LOVED

Monday, April 11, 2005

Revive and Retore - Spiritual Summit

O LORD you're beautiful
Your face is all I seek
And when your eyes are on this child
Your grace abounds to me
- Keith Green (1980)

Psalm 63:3-4
Thy loving kindness is better than life
Thy loving kindness is better than life
My lips shall praise thee
Thus I will bless thee
I will lift up my hands unto thy name
- Hugh Mitchell (1956)

Psalm 63: 5-7
I eat my fill of prime rib and gravy;
I smack my lips. It's time to shout praises!
If I'm sleepless at midnight,
I spend the hours in grateful reflection.
Because you've always stood up for me,
I'm free to run and play.
- The Message Bible

The Dream Giver - www.thedreamgiver.com
+ Leaving your best friend behind p. 19
+ Yes you can. And I will be with you. I will help you p.23
+ The concerns of your old friends help bring clarity to concerns you face - wisdom p.30

Hebrews 13:15-16
Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise–the fruit of lips that confess his name. And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.

Monday, March 28, 2005

Covenant of Love

1 Kings 8:23
Solomon declaring the LORD's covenant of love,

"O GOD, God of Israel, there is no God like you in the skies above or on the earth below who unswervingly keeps covenant with his servants and relentlessly loves them as they sincerely live in obedience to your way." (MSG)

Monday, March 07, 2005

Taste and Appetite

Taste and appetite are what defines morality-
Knowing what you like is knowing who you are.
- adaptated from John Ruskin

Monday, February 28, 2005

Into the Park

Recovering - the Lord beckons me out of my slumber,
I enter into the park,
In first moments of awareness,
Surroundings I see my grandfather.

He sits as he always does, just so,
Peacefully enjoying all His created things,
He knows the intricacies and admires,
Peace in his mind,
Peace in his heart,
Resting in peace is his body.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

obedience

Obedience is not love but obedience is because of love - true?

Let it begin, Captain

Reflecting on the quote of the day yesterday at work, I would like to say:

May the Lord allow me to live life so that I may fear death as I do my own bed.

Annie has been so understanding of my life decisions. God is too good to me, for sure I am not worthy of such a fine lady.

Will Mr. Dave Burns challenge or support my openness with him? I wonder...

Diablo II... what an eyeball frying good time it is with Todd. Shooting a bow on my "study break" rocks! I need to keep good track of how far this goes... can't get too enraptured.

Okay God, got to help me out here... am I going to seminary or not? Fall, the next year or tomorrow? =) Well, guess I'll just have to see... I just have to remember that God likes to make it exciting! The cross, now if that wasn't an action packed exciting event or what...

The papers... well, I'm cranking them out... Am I always going to be unmotivated until the last moment? Will I forever be a reactionary guy? People like listeners, God... are you going to let me be one someday? I want to learn! =)

Well, a prayer or John Li and my mom... keep them up! John... lots of skills, more confidence. God people school... not school people God, I pray... and mommy... I love you but you make it hard...please love the Lord soon!

Captain's log: 2004-1208-1:11am (thanks John!)

Friday, September 24, 2004

The Gift

The Gift

Wandered to the edges,
Climbed to the highest,
Searched in the depths,
Crushed by the darkest...

i returned to the closest,
with the MOST HIGHEST,
found by the faithful,
warmed and welcomed - home

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Fanning the Flame...

3C's...

Can I make a commitment to you, Lord, to daily spend time with you? I have always desired, but determination has always lacked in my life. Lord, I do not have the strength to be the contemplative Word-seeker you desire... Lord please help me.

Am I prideful in believing I am of character, yes, what I failed and been guilty of the many examples from Ryan of work place abuse, yes. Let me be convicted and rise up as a shining witness in the place called work, even as I take a break and use this nw8000 for blogging...

Circumstance... As Josh asks, "What if nothing really terrible has ever happened to me?"... I think... that's pretty terrible unto itself... Truly the longer and more infrequent you do not face large adversity, the harder it will be to deal with as it arises. Lord I pray that the brothers I hold accountable be able to have your character shine when situations arise. For myself Lord, I prayed to learn what it means and you have tested me... Lord I pray that now you give me the strength to let you shine in my life and my family.

Lord I pray for the faithful in my family to remain... I pray that the seeking find, for you are a good God and a just Savior for us all =)

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

2 overweights

Lord, thank you for blessing me with a a family that loves.
Friends...
Tony, Will, Norman, Walter, and Mommy
... may your example of love transform us all to be your children.
Lord, may my sister, grandparents, Daddy, and I continue to discover the joy that can only be found in you.

Thank you for delivering me safely!

5 Boxed in a CL and 2 over weights on a MD-80

Saturday, July 10, 2004

a short day...

Lord, I pray for the Lum's and Henry's. May their struggles and adventures demonstrate who you are.

Lord, what am I to do with my snaz75 selfishness? Work to change my heart, please.

Friday, July 09, 2004

Investing...

Invest in people

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God's instrument to people

Note


(1) God
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| \ (3) Love... goes a a long way
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I once did not know my creator and master and savior
I knew by love and passion I could go a long way
I though that my passion and love could last forever
But then I met one who loved my Lord
and passion... oh we had tons!
But patience, commitment, and courage
we found this could only bring us together as one
under God, our Father, together

pretty /
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smile /

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

faith


faith
seeking
desire
belief
gospel
for walking by faith requires faith...

Lord I pray you show my sister Tina
the beauty of experiencing your love

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Thanks Annie...

Psalm 119:9-16

How can a young man keep his way pure?
By living according to your word.
I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.
I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Praise be to you, O LORD ;
teach me your decrees.
With my lips I recount
all the laws that come from your mouth.
I rejoice in following your statutes
as one rejoices in great riches.
I meditate on your precepts
and consider your ways.
I delight in your decrees;
I will not neglect your word.

Monday, May 24, 2004

Reading and Teaching

Wow! Lord you are the God great things!
Please help the brothers in our fellowship
focus on reading your word this coming year.
We have put befor you the task of completely
reading the New Testament together. We want
to come as humble men, seeking your word.

Teachers and teaching and china teachers
Annie and CGBC and tentmaking

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Jeannie's upset....

Lord,

Ouch is what it feels like when other hurt you.
Lord I know I have acted out of the lack of love
for my sister. Lord, help to show me your love
for those that hurt you.

Lord, tomorrow is another day of great challenges
and new friendships. Please help me be a nice and
lovely example for your glory and witness.

Lord I pray for Osa's safe arrival, soon!

Jerry

Monday, May 17, 2004

Enoch is getting hitched. Lord watch other their relationship and witness to the world. Lord, what shall I say to my GuGu in Taiwan? When shall I call her? Has your words penetrated her Japanese-friendly surroundings? I pray for her salvation, for she may be in a valley soon, without you. Help is in you.

Lord, my sister will be challenged this year. Is it a PDL that she will life for your sake? My mother... may I stay faithful as a witnes to her. Grandparents are in your care now, I an eternally grateful!

Third Day's challenger to the world... Not behind stain glass with distain. BE OUT THERE in the trenches and to NOT be afraid. Even death cannot conqueror us, for you are THE LORD.

Lord, Tim is growing. I pray that he remains faithful as trials of family, school, and culture arise. I thank you for his heart for people.

Annie NEEDS rest! Lord, I pray you will show her peace and rest even if you have to decommission her physically so that she is forced to do so. Burn-burn is ineffective for your kingdom. As a witness, let us do less, but well. Be still and humbled... I need to be.

Aaron/Kim, Andy/Janie, and Juan - You have sent, may they be listening and effective for kingdom building for you.

Awesome is my God and awesome is His love! Oh yeah! "Your love oh Lord, reaches to the heavens..."

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Where does my hope come from... You Lord.
Where does my SHAPE come from... again, You Lord.

Help me to remember it, daily.

Kings win, Annie's going to China, Michael is doing drama, Chuck is looking, Pastor Ted is studying, where do you want me Lord? Shall Tonsaye come to know you? Prayer is asking my good father today for help.

Brother Ken, loving disciple of yours. Let us seek the word together is truth.

Mother of my womb, Lord, she is veiled from you. Oh may she come to know the joy of bring your child. Oh mighty is my Lord who can do these things!

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Lord, teach me patience with my trials... the phone is just a phone... =)

Joy to THE world who knows you!

Lord, teach my patience with my trials... the phone is just a phone... =)

Joy to THE world

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Kings beat the Mavs for game 2... bitter sweet...

Still want to all my GuGu in Taiwan. Constantly thankful for God allowing me to meet Annie.

Temptations constant... oh help me Lord, OVERCOME!

Praise you, oh father, for good but caution diagnosis of my eye. May I fix them upon your glory, alone!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

"This is LA!" - SC

Annie is cool...
Getty-land and tours
"I'm am writing a book... to summarize modern art" - Is it over then? =)
UCLA - Grace on Campus - we feel old, eh?
San Diego and Cindyland tour - LA JOLLA!
United Community and my Grandparents + FOOD!

Car talk and prayer, Lord be with us

Monday, April 12, 2004

Back dating in Taiwan:

Sarah Brightman in McDonalds
Sacramento School of Music
infor.org
ASIA records
Gu Gong Museum
Hua Lian Trip with Uncle and Aunties
GuGu
Carrefour
Protest rallies and flags
Da Suen Fa
Tesco
Lily and Ashley Virginia Bound?

Sunday, March 21, 2004

Long dark tile corridor with mysterious boxes at the end...
Spinning steering wheel knobs...
corona corollas and alfa romeos

Here in Taiwan... Lord may you open the heart of Abby to you. She is young loves your creation. May you show she that you are love and draw her to your side.

Lord, my daddy's back feel relief. Bob and Jackson and friends unite.

Thank you Lord for placing this challenge before me. =)

Monday, March 15, 2004

Lord, you are my strength each day and each hour. Praise you and your mighty ways!

Lord, may you lift the spirits of my brother Michael as you challenge him with a great trial. The faithful belongs to you. Please grant us both, greater faith.

"Pirates in Ministry" - Adventures in Serving

Friday, March 05, 2004

You are the air I breathe...
Now I am travelling light...

=) - Thank you, Lord for Annie Li

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Oh Lord, give me strength to love and to complete the course

Allow Aaron and Kimberley to constantly seek you in their ministry of love to those in Chico. Please be with Alice Lee, my friend and "mom"

Lord, the children of CGBC, do you desire them to worship you? How and do you wish for me to serve? Lord, above all, show me how to love the children the the ones who serve them! =)

Praise you that you have brought Stephen back safely. Lord, I pray that the people of Iraq learn to recognize that you are the only God of love and hope.

Lord, we you be over the men of CAT today as they meet. If you guide Ryan to our mist, may he feel welcome and apart of the fellowship.

Amen, for my Lord is an awesome God! =)

Sunday, February 29, 2004

July 31st - GMAT is set - May the Lord always be my only strength

Socrates
- according to Plato
- according to Xenophon

Saturday, February 28, 2004

Ask Karin for Loan info and pray, pray, PRAY!
Share with Mommy God's love. Sacramento by faith.

Lord help me be be disciplined. Not to give into the easy way out endurance.
I am not a humble man. I need much to serve. Lord, place in my heart the council of thy Spirit.

The children's worship - where does the heart of a child find on a Sunday that is pleasing to you?
Vivian Lee and PA

Fabian o Colleen

Mike McGrath! Praise the Lord as they praise the Lord! Sing out a new song to the Lord!
Track 3 and 6

Khit and Chuck, may they be welcomed with open arms this evening.

Where is Loan? Heart? Body? Faith? Lord I pray that you are speaking to her with your Spirit and in your truth.

Prayer o prayer - Mommy and Mommy Alice... Please keep them strong and able.

Lord, may you watch my sister and James? I do not know what to do for my life is my life, but theirs is yours...

AK Wun - Winning with Bruce Almighty I hope and pray!

Do list:
PDL Small group
GMAT
My Fair Lady
Chinese
Worship Music Composition
Give faithfully
Websites
Functional Design Art Classes
FIND MY BEST

Stop list:
Western
Just Sing Music
I'M ONLY "GOOD" AT

Friday, February 27, 2004

Khitam Musad - Lord protect her for your glory, please...

Thursday, February 26, 2004

Chris Yeoh - Lord I pray that our fellowship is of open arms and loving heart to this man

Lord, where is the place for music... worship... Lord, show me how I can better worship you with voice and sound.

LabVEW for life, for work, or forever! =)

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Stuggling with Luke... Lord give me strength! Uplift your daughter, Alice Lee. Healing and suffering... may they all be for Your glory.

Thursday, February 19, 2004

NOT FINISHED!
Lukian Chart...
Unstoppable Force!
home work, homework, homework...

Sister, Mother, Father, love them I do! =)




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Monday, February 16, 2004

Easter - Grandma - Plane, Train, or Automobile?